Archived Appeal: 76561198048543665 - (SiM / BANNED BY SR)

Appeal for BANNED BY SR

Steam profile: 76561198048543665 (SiM)

Appeal Plea: I committed the offense(s), I admit it
Appeal Reason: [Other] Another reason (Not commonly accepted)

Victim Repayment: Yes, I repaid the victims of my offense(s)
Previous Appeals: Yes, I appealed here before and it was denied.​

Alternate Accounts:

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Appeal description:

I got marked by SR 1,828 days ago, as a naive, awkward, confused, and misguided 15 year old this was the world to me. Attempting to scam another member of the trading community for a transaction of $1,000 and expecting others to simply just "shurg this off" as I had thought they would was clearly NOT the reality I found myself in. I had absolutely no perception of consequential repercussions. The only thing I knew at the time was that I was growing up in a world that seemed far too complex for me to wrap my self indulgent mind around. I was scared of learning how to adapt and become a productive member of society, nerved by the bleak reality of getting lost in the dissociated state of merely existing, and not truly living.

My brightest ideas (not limited to the one you're currently reading about) often involved ways so that I didn't have to worry about this perpetual time plane of "growing up" and simply gave me an excuse to feel sorry for myself and allow myself to continue to shape myself in this mindset. I thought if I could steal / obtain / use something, anything, attached with any kind of value whether that be monetary, mind altering, desired by others.. etc, that it would then give myself and my life meaning.

Little did I know that would only spiral through deep and dark clouded daze of complete misjudgment and anger throughout my teenage years, setting the bar for experiences that would forever change my life. It's unsettling trying to think back and really tap into those emotions that led us to such starved times of life. I quickly fell into artificial coping skills, after losing the platform that "helped" me feel confident I found myself trying to take in anything that would provide in any sort of momentary relief.

Instantaneous comfort is the worth mindset to constantly crave, wanting to escape and cover myself up with an artificial blanket rather than learn or experience all things life has to offer, I cowered day in and day out because I simply refused to deal with life on lifes terms and it took me many many years to break that shell and become the man I am today.

I will spare everyone the nitty gritty years that consumed many years of my life, but I just wanted to come here and make peace with all the negative emotions attached to this whole debacle that I, along with everything else at the time, just pushed away and refused to take accountability on. Life is such an amazing experience, what we're seeing and doing everyday is just breath taking. So thank you, everyone who held me accountable, regardless of what, thank you for playing a part in something so substantial in my life.

I simply wanted to come here today and give my thanks for allowing me to finally learn from this. It took me many years to finally be able to get to the point for where I am today, but to no alas this community and many others helped escalate me reach this point faster and that right there is a gift.

If you've bothered to read this far thank you, for even you are playing a part in something much bigger than what it seems.​